You have been weighed...

Today Knight's Tale was on TV. I have loved this movie since the first time I watched it. I think I may have loved it even more this time though. I am sure everyone has had a time that they connected with a truth so deeply they knew they would never forget it, whether it was in a religious class, school class, a talk with your parents/friends or any other of the possible learning opportunities. I was recently in a women's religious meeting where they used Knight's Tale as a teaching tool.

We were all asked to bring our purses, whether they be a simple wallet we carry with us or a huge purse/diaper bag. During the mingling we were told to weigh and measure our purses and write the numbers down on a clip board. There was a lot of laughing and comparing.

The speaker opened with what she observed. We had checked our numbers with other numbers already written. We had commented half anxiously if our measurements were out of the "ordinary". We had complimented other's bags. Sometimes we berated or downplayed our own bags.

Then she told the outline of the movie A Knight's Tale. She commented on how we have people who tell us in many ways, "You have been weighed, you have been measured, and you have been found wanting." You know the people. You know that feeling. Maybe your bag is too big, too small, too light, too heavy. In whatever way, they say you are not enough.

We do this to each other, we do this to ourselves. Even as we become aware of this we will never fully escape it because it surrounds us. I see it in magazines, those perfect thighs that no human could possibly possess but I know I need to be beautiful. I see it in strangers faces when they disapprove of my son. I tell it to myself when I realize it has been almost a week and I haven't cooked a decent meal.

But in the movie, William does not believe this. He knows, deep in his heart, that he is enough. He makes mistakes, he doesn't always win, but he never doubts his ability to change his stars. He is not just some poor thatcher's son. He is someone more than that. He doesn't run when he is found out even when his friends plead with him to do so. He only replies, "I am a knight. I will not run." He never doubts that he is a knight. He knows it in his heart.

If you know the movie you will also know that he is saved by Prince Edward. Edward says that he has found that William is from noble decent.

We too come from noble decent. We can't forget it.

I know some people would disagree with the noble decent part. But I can't leave it out. I have heard stories of people who get a little religious with their blog and get crap for it. In reality though, who really reads this anyway? This is for me. And I need to remember it. I need to remember when I feel as though I am found "wanting" that I am a child of God.